And they will know the truth

"Jesus cried out again with a loud voice, and yielded up His spirit.

Then, behold, the veil of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom; and the earth quaked, and the rocks were split, and the graves were opened...

So when the centurion and those with him, who were guarding Jesus, saw the earthquake and the things that had happened, they feared greatly, saying, 'Truly this was the Son of God!'" 

- Matthew 27.50-54

Sometimes big events don't go as we had hoped. But something that was revealed to me this morning is that when a truth is present, the event can be a mess, but it will still be perfect because the truth can never be confused. Eventually. all will know the truth.

When Christ died on the cross, God's spirit came upon the people who had been looking on, and all knew at once that he was the Son of God - he was everything the people denied him to be during the time that he had witnessed on earth.

Whether truth is concealed, denied, or simply presented to people not prepared to accept it, it is painful. When we are entrusted by God to be a vessel to that truth, yet all we feel is overlooked and forsaken, we can feel rejected.

But are we really? If God's truth will be permeated regardless of the circumstances, which of course it will, it's important to release from any notion of how victory ought to look. Rising above self-defeating self-talk of regret because we believed to have missed the mark is actually defiance to God's will, the most dangerous attitude we can take on.

Not only does self-denigration assume God's will was not administered, but it gives our power away to other people, which is so self-harming as it leaves us defenseless against psychic attacks which often times we aren't even aware of.

I am recognizing that I have given much of my power away, and I didn't even know. But God will always have His way, and I am finding His scales of justice balance what has been removed from me much more swiftly that I could ever hope for.

So this is today's message - things are not what they seem. With a sincere, even if corrupted, heart, along with a willingness to become a happy person, God will correct all that torments us, and He will do it gently, allowing us to move forward with integrity.

I don't need work on being right today, because I am right without effort, without needing to even have it in mind. God uses us as vessels which can be shattered in less than the blink of an eye, so what does it matter what I of myself could possibly manage? I will be recognized after the fact, not during. During God's work I will be judged, processed, and dismissed, and that needs to be okay with me. Sooner than later the truth will be infused, because there really is no choice and no preparation once God makes a decision.

False prophets

Too many times I have relied possibly too heavily for encouragement from people who possibly had no business carrying a lantern, both in the New Age and Christian communities. Too many times I have depended upon other people's convictions, only to see them dwindle off. The usual culprit is what it has been since the beginning of time, no doubt. Love. Most notably, false love. False love for they thought was a spiritual purpose, or false love in new partnerships. Either finding more importance in their material life, or falling apart when it doesn't turn out as planned. Leaders disappearing, discontinuing, and the worst of all, disassociating, with more than one issuing public recants.

And I am not meaning to victimize myself, I must take responsibility for relying too passionately on just about every spiritual guide I have ever turned to for inspiration, all who have gone by the wayside. People I thought were fearless, but who were actually weak and fake. People who I thought relied on God but in actuality relied on self and elementary survival codes. I ignored signs either by manipulating them, or omitting them entirely, in order to justify my feelings and support people who did not deserve my diligence.

Part of my own soul journey is to level my pride because I have a disease of loneliness, and have discovered that I cannot live in a fantasy world of grandeur while at the same time form the meaningful connections needed to alleviate my afflictions. So it is appropriate that while I don't place myself on a pedestal, I don't place others on one, as well. The solution that I believe to be most trust-worthy at this point. is to be guided by my own intuition, not someone else's personal revelations, and to probably move more slowly through any engagement with the trailblazers who have what the pattern seems to be only seasons of counsel.

Life can be unnecessarily painful when I give my power away, whether that be to teachers, parents, friends, or lovers. I do not subscribe to the belief that all people will eventually let us down, but I do recognize today that I must respect myself before I respect others. While I currently lament over false prophets, I do not believe that relationships need to inevitably mislead us. When we can relate ourselves rightly to God, His universe, and others, through a commitment to self to be the best version of ourselves, I see no need for letdown or conflict.

We are all just fumbling our way as we reach our destination - the end of the road where we know not what awaits us, and truly, that makes us all equal, and all fallible. Hopefully moving forward I will learn to place more trust in myself and let go of expectations I place on others, including my own ideas of what true happiness and release really is.

The truth lay in the Rose.

Highs and lows

"Jesus...was baptized by John...And the Spirit descend(ed) upon Him like a dove. Then a voice came from heaven, 'You are My beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased.'

Immediately the Spirit drove Him into the wilderness. And He was there in the wilderness forty days, tempted by Satan." Mark 1.9-12

The Bible is the Living Word of God. Ask any Christian that. This means that it breathes into us new life with new understanding with every evolution in our relationship with God. Though I have read the Gospel of Mark before, the Bible is not to be read intellectually. And it was the Spirit's will that I grasped a crucial teaching that was given to me to strengthen me, which I now pass on to you. To note, other gospels in the Bible give detailed accounts of what happened in the wilderness. 

Jesus' baptism was one of the most pivotal events in his brief life. In the account written by Mark, we see that it is at this beautiful moment where the fullness of God's grace is bestowed upon him. We see that Jesus truly is the Son of God, that he is the greatest of all men...and then his life takes an unbelievable turn.

IMMEDIATELY he is led into the desert where he is starved and tormented by Satan himself - the most vicious, jealous, spiteful (and stupid) being on this earth. So how did the narrative change from Jesus being utterly blessed to being so cruelly cursed? Maybe his hardship wasn't really what it appeared to be from the outside looking in.

How often have I risen only to fall one day or one week later. How can a person not feel picked on by this world when moments of relief are perpetually superseded by dejection? But my heart was open to receiving the word "immediately" yesterday, and I have been steadily meditating on it. Surely there is something important in identifying with the glory and adversity that Christ experienced within one single day.

"My yoke is easy, and my burden is light." Matthew 11.30

Yoke means to join together, Biblically speaking, it was when work animals, like oxen which work naturally in pairs, were joined together by a device around their neck that made their work more efficient, because they could carry heavier loads. But as with all examples, Jesus who is not of this world spoke of things not of this world. He was referring to being joined together with God. Those on the spiritual path know "Of myself I am nothing, the Lord does the work" (John 14.10). We simply do not have sufficient strength to manage in the wilderness on our own resources.

Apostle Paul wrote about this time in the "desert", and he learned to accept it as God's will, not because he believed that he was evil and deserved to be punished, no just the opposite: Paul knew that he was God's greatest soldier, and that he was being strengthened during his time in the wilderness, which for him was a jail cell.

"Lest I should be exalted above measure by the abundance of the revelations, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, a messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I be exalted above measure. Concerning this thing I pleaded with the Lord three times that it might depart from me. And He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." 2 Corinthians 12:7-9

I will continue in my time of prayer and reflection on the highs and lows on this Hero's Journey, and I hope to chronicle and relate back with my progress, ever hoping to inspire all who travel to the apex of peace and comfort. Blessings, gentle reader. 

Message from Archangel Orion

I have been guided to Archangel Orion. He is ancient, but has only recently introduced himself to us. Because he is new to us, up until now those who did know him did not recognize his high office of "Archangel". Because Orion is so incredibly kind and humble, he does not require to be acknowledged for his stature. His only wish is for us to see his truth, our truth, and what the Earth requires of us.

This is a channelled message from Archangel Orion, who directly communicated with Melanie Blecker, and I wanted to share this grounding and hopeful message. This is important for me to share, because I have been releasing from fear for the first time in my life, and while so joyous, it's tempting to lapse into old negative programming.

"Fear is your biggest obstacle and opponent, but do not buy into it. Know that fear is not real, fear is illusion. And when you release it, when you trust that you are safe, when you trust that the universe is providing for you and does have a divine plan of goodness for your life, your work and your relationships, you stop the cycle of struggle, and you are able to be authentic, to be loved. And this is what you are, and this is what the energy of today gives to you, the gift of love, the gift of creative joy, the gift of enhanced manifestation. The gift of ascending into a higher vibrational experience of beauty, wellness, and love."

Every fear that I concoct in my mind is a lie. Every danger that I perceive is an illusion that is totally misguided. Every time I decide that something or someone is a threat, I find myself losing balance after being blindsided from a totally different direction.

Learning to take a step back has been my greatest spiritual gift, the greatest accomplishment of my regeneration back to God. From it stems all sorts of confidence and self-esteem which has graced me. And when I have a bad moment, I can take it hour to hour, or talk to someone about something even entirely unrelated, and come back to Earth, my feet back on the ground, refocussed and ready to do what I need to do in my day-to-day living.

It's easy to slip into fear, but now I find it's just as easy to release from it. I might get discouraged, unsure of why perfectly aligned events never materialized in my favour, but with the ability to release from fear comes the ability to trust the outcome - to have faith that there is something more suitable for my soul journey.

I hope this is helpful. I understand that channelling can be disturbing to my Christian friends, but this is something that I am very comfortable with. Communication with angels is recorded even in the Old Testament, and while the question is, are these beings truly of light, the answer lies in what they are saying, and I am assuring my readers that this message is safe. So if you can't trust the source, I hope you can trust the messenger. Amen.

From Kyle Gray's Angel Prayers Oracle Cards

Loving detachment

I have been receiving messaging lately that my purpose is to be happy, which is mind-blowing for me. In my studies on Buddhism and Christianity, never once did I suspect that life was anything but hardship, and that challenges in day-to-day living were righteous.  I internalized that learning to detach, as well as carrying a cross (another way I understood destitution) was the formula for true love of God, and it validated my material and spiritual poverty. I misunderstood sacrifice, using it to excuse my inability to live life on life's terms.

But in the present I can finally see that the universe has conspired, through God's will, to place people and events in front of me who would lead me into natural light, not the man-made harnessed light that is unsustainable, and which I was erroneously chasing for two decades.

In recognizing that the universe is so much more powerful than me, and all I can possibly do is swim along its currents, I now cooperate with the flow, with its energy. I cannot control a single thing, and in perceiving this, I am better able to respect what happens, or doesn't happen, around me and regarding me. I am an energy light-being, we all are, and some charges are more powerful than others.

So today my detachment is in love and trust, which is the truth of what I am to embody. That is what makes me a child of God, who is the Director of the universe I can finally account to and who has guided me all along, but whose instructions I refused to follow. To note, surrendering to what the universe intends for me doesn't mean that I become listless, not  taking chances to be who and what I aspire for, but it does mean that I honour what is or is not intended for me, with grace.

My happiness is within my connection to what is best for me, to others and their own soul journeys, and to what God's will is for me, where I may by comply with His conclusion. Detachment by choice, and not by dejection, has proven to help me grow into the person who I have always wanted to be. And while this ability came to fruition through pain, my hope is that all people can learn to flow with God by willingness.

Good and bad

"God, I pray that you now have all of me, good AND bad..." Yes, even the bad: the wrong I want to commit, that I know is wrong because I want to act in secret, because it's shameful. The bad where I wouldn't act in such a way, were I in proper health.

But rejoice! For if it is good enough for God, it is good enough for me to own, and in that way, I may release. I cannot give what I do not have, and actions that stem from shortcomings no longer need to play out, because today I know that I don't need to internalize any bad feelings, at all.

I used to gloss over any characteristics that were undesirable to me or the way they involved others, because I thought I wasn't supposed to have them. I would suppress them, deny them, or minimize them, and now I see that I wasn't revealing them, so that I could then heal them.

But after a pretty bad episode that nearly cost me more than I can afford, I came to God in a different approach unlike any way I had before. This permitted me to see that God wants to take all that is questionable within me, and I finally realized who am I to say what I am "too good" for?

I saw that my pride and my defiance were astoundingly strong, and that they served in no way but to defeat me. MY way doesn't work, and it never, ever did, and there is no sane reason for me to believe that someday I might beat the game. Now I have mentors and friends who, if I wouldn't want them knowing my business, why would I want to go about it the way I have?

I am often tempted to fall back into fundamental Christianity, but more and more undeniable signs are urging me to remain on my path of energy work. I am not afraid of demonic portals any longer, but I have of late questioned if my infirmities are too strong to resist simply by prayer or deep breathing, Now I recognize fully that I have all of the tools that I need to maintain my integrity so long as I remain connected to my vision of being perfectly yoked to God, instead of connecting only in times of painful desperation which invariably then lead to repentance.

Because I am ALWAYS in need of redemption, no matter how much conviction of the Spirit is offensive to the ear, it is necessary, and I welcome it. Yes, of course I want my autonomy, I want to revolt at the prospect of leadership and direction. But it is now apparent to me, that "my" way only bears  poisoned fruit, at best.

Suffering is a necessary initiation, and it doesn't need to be feared - it is evolutionary, but as with anything, it is a tool that needs to be used rightly. I now know two things: 1) Suffering passes more quickly once it is accepted and acknowledged, and 2) Peace overflows once God removes the hurt, which He will. Consequently, fear will also assert two things: 1) My sins will disgrace me, so why bother, and 2) If I don't hold on to the pain, I won't be able to control it. These fears are foolish values that strangely go against survival instincts and contribute to a corrosion in personhood.

Acceptance is paramount, but understanding the deeper meaning of a fearful situation that in all likelihood arose from something I created in transgression, is also required in order to maintain equilibrium, and then dismiss it. The problem with evil is I secretly enjoy it, but upon honest appraisal, I can see that I only cling to what is rotten, because I feel unfit for what is good.

I now know there is nothing wrong with failure and hurt feelings, so today I invite them in for tea. Then they leave and I ask God to be with them. They might want to come back and visit, but sometimes I'm not at home to entertain them. Sometimes I'll take a quick phone call with them, and no matter the occassion, I bless them when it's their time to head out.

For me that is real peace, and by God's grace I have found how to release the fear that can cripple my development as a human being and as a woman. I might still make mistakes that can arise from not being perfectly yoked to God, but I can keep courage that it will get better, because I am taking the steps needed to transmute negative programming that lead to poor decision making. It's a lot of work, but it's worth it.

The Cabinet

How amazing
that the mind remembers
what it knew not it absorbed.

When that moment of youth
floods in,
as Nature knocks without warning.

I stood there,
displaced, yet planted.
Looking into my past, just by chance.

By chance!
How twisted - or precise -
That which orchestrated my beginning, and their end.

They who did not suffer
and I who did not care,
for Nature had not yet knocked on my door.

The door that was light,
now it is dark.
But I remember it clearly, of how it once was.

And I noticed its absence -
the cabinet inside,
when I saw where I stand, and amended my pride.

Not Lost

It was
And now is not.
And we are torn
though all's not lost -
Everything's not lost.¹

And we live in a beautiful world.²
Melodies come - they always return,
for Nature is in rhythm,
and will never go unlearned.

And now I see, as I forlorn
Misplaced, my flowers grown back as thorns.³
Driven to destruction -
(It's all part of the plan).⁴

And throughout all my studies
And all that is fragment
I know now what truly does in fact
make a man,
a man.

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1 Coldplay "Everything's Not Lost"
2 Coldplay "Beautiful World"
3 Taylor Swift "Call It What You Want"
4 Coldplay "X&Y"