I have been receiving messaging lately that my purpose is to be happy, which is mind-blowing for me. In my studies on Buddhism and Christianity, never once did I suspect that life was anything but hardship, and that challenges in day-to-day living were righteous. I internalized that learning to detach, as well as carrying a cross (another way I understood destitution) was the formula for true love of God, and it validated my material and spiritual poverty. I misunderstood sacrifice, using it to excuse my inability to live life on life's terms.
But in the present I can finally see that the universe has conspired, through God's will, to place people and events in front of me who would lead me into natural light, not the man-made harnessed light that is unsustainable, and which I was erroneously chasing for two decades.
In recognizing that the universe is so much more powerful than me, and all I can possibly do is swim along its currents, I now cooperate with the flow, with its energy. I cannot control a single thing, and in perceiving this, I am better able to respect what happens, or doesn't happen, around me and regarding me. I am an energy light-being, we all are, and some charges are more powerful than others.
So today my detachment is in love and trust, which is the truth of what I am to embody. That is what makes me a child of God, who is the Director of the universe I can finally account to and who has guided me all along, but whose instructions I refused to follow. To note, surrendering to what the universe intends for me doesn't mean that I become listless, not taking chances to be who and what I aspire for, but it does mean that I honour what is or is not intended for me, with grace.
My happiness is within my connection to what is best for me, to others and their own soul journeys, and to what God's will is for me, where I may by comply with His conclusion. Detachment by choice, and not by dejection, has proven to help me grow into the person who I have always wanted to be. And while this ability came to fruition through pain, my hope is that all people can learn to flow with God by willingness.
But in the present I can finally see that the universe has conspired, through God's will, to place people and events in front of me who would lead me into natural light, not the man-made harnessed light that is unsustainable, and which I was erroneously chasing for two decades.
In recognizing that the universe is so much more powerful than me, and all I can possibly do is swim along its currents, I now cooperate with the flow, with its energy. I cannot control a single thing, and in perceiving this, I am better able to respect what happens, or doesn't happen, around me and regarding me. I am an energy light-being, we all are, and some charges are more powerful than others.
So today my detachment is in love and trust, which is the truth of what I am to embody. That is what makes me a child of God, who is the Director of the universe I can finally account to and who has guided me all along, but whose instructions I refused to follow. To note, surrendering to what the universe intends for me doesn't mean that I become listless, not taking chances to be who and what I aspire for, but it does mean that I honour what is or is not intended for me, with grace.
My happiness is within my connection to what is best for me, to others and their own soul journeys, and to what God's will is for me, where I may by comply with His conclusion. Detachment by choice, and not by dejection, has proven to help me grow into the person who I have always wanted to be. And while this ability came to fruition through pain, my hope is that all people can learn to flow with God by willingness.
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