Fate calling

It felt like choosing
between love and money,
passion or excitement,
night verses day.

The fit it was
to decide.
But when I did,
it was a relief.

Still, I had to write
to instill in me
the reality
of starting anew

A new person
in Christ
who he had left behind.

But I didn't know,
despite the criticism,
because we talked for hours
like nothing really changed.

Then I saw a vision,
and it tore me up
but he didn't understand,
because his heart was hard
and broken.

And we never spoke
again.