This piece probably isn't for a general audience. This piece is for those who are very dark within, who have a soul-sickness, a seed that didn't sprout because it fell on infertile soil and is now rotting, and for those so broken they feel other-worldly. You are my kindred-souls, my heartbeat when I am weary. Wherever my life takes me, may we be connected forever. ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
I have been contemplating how is it possible to emotionally browbeat the people who we love? I find it is so disconcerting that we can mercilessly hurt and be hurt by people who are cornerstones in our lives. The general answer I've heard over the years is that we know we can get away with it. We are confident that we can act out of line and be forgiven. But there must be more to it than that, because the stakes are way too high at times to make the assumption that person will still stand before us after the chaos.
The most brilliant person I know has the answer, or at least, the evidence of how that sort of abuse is possible. We make ourselves vulnerable to people when we give them access to emotions and knowledge. I found this theory so interesting. When we make ourselves vulnerable, there is a soft spot - I won't call it a weak spot, I'll just call it a place where the person who we choose to trust has safe passage to our minds. I wondered why do we want to use sacred spaces in people's psyches to take them down in times of strife?
The answer was immediate - The Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. The theft of the fruit of this holy tree was our first crime against God. (Genesis 3.1-6) When our ancestors took what wasn't theirs to take, their eyes were opened to powers that God said was only intended for Him and His heavenly Council. But now we have power that our finite bodies and under-developed minds cannot hold. And we go mad.
We want to hurt the ones we love when they do not in fact or in fiction live up to a reasonable or unreasonable standards that we have willfully and selfishly imposed. But why do we want to decimate them? Because in the knowledge of who and what we are, and in the entitlement and ownership we feel in knowing who and what they are, we perceive a dishonouring and we demand vengeance. We attack the sacred space that they showed us in moments of love. We regress to a denser time when the Law was an eye for an eye, at the very least.
So how do we learn to stay calm and come into the age of love and tolerance where we turn the other cheek? Do we emotionally disconnect from our loved ones? Do we become recluses and retreat to a metaphorical mountain far, far away? Do we go to therapy and analyze our childhoods? Read self-help books? Study Buddhism?? When I have the answer, I'll let you know. In the meantime, may our pride be lessened day-by-day to not only give to God that which is objectionable to us and within us, to not only apologize promptly when needed, but to actually recognize when these alien obstructions are in us that need to be released.
Yes, we come from thieves. Our birthright isn't happiness, it's a life-sentence. But I really do believe that ransom of our lives was paid for on a bloodied cross, and at the foot of it I will continue to cry in the passion that I never had to suffer in because the One who has All Power already did that for me. For us. And until I have all the answers, I will continue to use to the best of my ability my God-given judgement which is my intuition otherwise known as gut-instinct, in order to give and take knowledge from people who I care about and who care about me.
I have been contemplating how is it possible to emotionally browbeat the people who we love? I find it is so disconcerting that we can mercilessly hurt and be hurt by people who are cornerstones in our lives. The general answer I've heard over the years is that we know we can get away with it. We are confident that we can act out of line and be forgiven. But there must be more to it than that, because the stakes are way too high at times to make the assumption that person will still stand before us after the chaos.
The most brilliant person I know has the answer, or at least, the evidence of how that sort of abuse is possible. We make ourselves vulnerable to people when we give them access to emotions and knowledge. I found this theory so interesting. When we make ourselves vulnerable, there is a soft spot - I won't call it a weak spot, I'll just call it a place where the person who we choose to trust has safe passage to our minds. I wondered why do we want to use sacred spaces in people's psyches to take them down in times of strife?
The answer was immediate - The Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. The theft of the fruit of this holy tree was our first crime against God. (Genesis 3.1-6) When our ancestors took what wasn't theirs to take, their eyes were opened to powers that God said was only intended for Him and His heavenly Council. But now we have power that our finite bodies and under-developed minds cannot hold. And we go mad.
We want to hurt the ones we love when they do not in fact or in fiction live up to a reasonable or unreasonable standards that we have willfully and selfishly imposed. But why do we want to decimate them? Because in the knowledge of who and what we are, and in the entitlement and ownership we feel in knowing who and what they are, we perceive a dishonouring and we demand vengeance. We attack the sacred space that they showed us in moments of love. We regress to a denser time when the Law was an eye for an eye, at the very least.
So how do we learn to stay calm and come into the age of love and tolerance where we turn the other cheek? Do we emotionally disconnect from our loved ones? Do we become recluses and retreat to a metaphorical mountain far, far away? Do we go to therapy and analyze our childhoods? Read self-help books? Study Buddhism?? When I have the answer, I'll let you know. In the meantime, may our pride be lessened day-by-day to not only give to God that which is objectionable to us and within us, to not only apologize promptly when needed, but to actually recognize when these alien obstructions are in us that need to be released.
Yes, we come from thieves. Our birthright isn't happiness, it's a life-sentence. But I really do believe that ransom of our lives was paid for on a bloodied cross, and at the foot of it I will continue to cry in the passion that I never had to suffer in because the One who has All Power already did that for me. For us. And until I have all the answers, I will continue to use to the best of my ability my God-given judgement which is my intuition otherwise known as gut-instinct, in order to give and take knowledge from people who I care about and who care about me.
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