Today I had to make a rapid decision regarding conflict at work by using using intuition and discernment over logic. I had to fully trust myself, knowing when it was time to back down. And while I am a spiritual person, I have never trusted my discernment, in fact, I have feared it. Satan is a subtle foe disguised as an angel of light, so who am I to judge?
But my dragon came to me today and gave me his power to make a decision, through the strength of God's holy day of atonement - Shrove Tuesday. With my guide that the Lord ever so lovingly and mercifully sent to me to help take the action needed to make amends with multiple people, including myself, I was able to effortlessly speak from the heart. Now I have the peace needed for another honest day's work, I feel so very blessed and hopeful, with the anticipation of great things in store for me.
My attitude shifted about half an hour into my day. The years of training through the Twelve Steps and sponsorship kicked in like muscle memory. I read some motivational literature, and I remembered that I am a good person and a hard worker, no matter the circumstance. I believed in myself at that moment and I resolved to have a good day, despite the pain that I was in.
I made a decision to believe in my own greatness, and I started on the work that I felt was inappropriately and rudely dumped on me last week, which I had been putting off. I instinctively knew I was better than to leave it to stare and fume at, I even considered hiding it (how mature). But God had planted in my heart to rise above my petty resentments, and to live in His grace.
I made a decision to believe in my own greatness, and I started on the work that I felt was inappropriately and rudely dumped on me last week, which I had been putting off. I instinctively knew I was better than to leave it to stare and fume at, I even considered hiding it (how mature). But God had planted in my heart to rise above my petty resentments, and to live in His grace.
So I chose love. God is love, and I therefore need not fear any inadequacies that I might struggle with in my insecurities of discernment. Today I have a Program of Recovery where I can see exactly where I go wrong, and when my intentions are selfish, or selfless. Sometimes I need to sleep on it, sometimes the seed that God plants in my heart to say "I'm sorry, I will correct this" needs to germinate, but when it does, the impossible becomes easy, and I feel free.
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