It can be really difficult to see zealous Christians, especially the ones who went to the Cross after practicing New Age, because I was essentially forced out of that movement due to unreasonable and unrealistic expectations. But it still takes effort for me to not return to fundamentalism, and to remember the hardship that comes with the inexcusable validation by born-again Christians to take the Bible literally, and to even damn Christians and non-Christians alike. I suppose they believe that if they overcame obstacles on their road to the Cross, everyone else should be able to commit to lies as well.
I keep thinking that I can have both worlds - the born-again, and the mystical, but the intolerance in converted Christian communities is nearly unbearable, because to avoid sin is not only just about impossible, but to believe that the earth was created in six days, or that Adam lived to be 900 years old, or that Mary conceived as a virgin, or that Jesus was buried for three days and then rose and returned to minister, is just absurd. I really don't understand why someone needs to believe those things in order to be a "real", and therefore accepted member of the Christian community.
They are the Pharisees as described in Matthew 23:13+15:
"'Woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you shut up the kingdom of heaven against men; for you neither go in yourselves, nor do you allow those who are entering to go in.
'Woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you travel land and sea to win one proselyte, and when he is won, you make him twice as much a son of hell as yourselves.'"
I know this to be true, I know that God is not the author of confusion, so why is it so difficult to not feel envious of these people who can so blindly follow their faith and so confidently evangelize, despite their hypocrisy? The solution is to not focus on these people, and to move away from their video testimonies where they with such ease debase my values, and stop checking to see if I've been unblocked from the group that I was in. But this can be really difficult when all I want is to follow the message of the Cross, and fit in somewhere. While I am being empowered to create and spread the motion for a new, true religion in Christ, it doesn't really help when my disease is otherness, and my remedy is togetherness.
"God did not appoint us to wrath, but to obtain salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ, who died for us, that whether we wake or sleep, we should live together with Him.
Therefore comfort each other and edify one another, just as you also are doing." 1 Thessalonians 5:9-11
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