Double-minded

I would very much like to talk about something that will not find its way onto my Facebook page, as it could be a stumbling block for members in Alcoholics Anonymous. In other words, my brethren. Furthermore, I do not post under my real name on this blog, so I am still keeping in tradition with the program, which states we must maintain personal anonymity at the level of press. 

I think it's important to address the side of A.A. which can have the fellowship turned into a witch hunt: A.A. is rooted in occult values. This is evident in some of its writings, and in its symbolism. It is rumoured that the reason why Dr. Bob, the co-founder, got sober, was because his membership from his Masonic lodge was suspended for his drunkenness

Bill W., the other co-founder, was connected to Carl Jung, accredited for being a key player in the start of A.A., and who wrote on the subject of symbolism - "language" used to conceal truer meanings (but which are also used for convenience). Symbolism is studied in the occult, and is considered "secret" knowledge - where their meanings are only to be disclosed to certain audiences.

Furthermore, A.A. was also given its powers through the elite one percent (sometimes called the Illuminati, the NWO [New World Order], or Luciferians, to name a few titles). This is because the Rockefeller's gave the co-founders the money they needed to get A.A. off the ground (mostly, to publish its book, Alcoholics Anonymous, which we in the fellowship affectionately call "The Big Book", and is the stable representation used to identify us).

But A.A. is also rooted in Christian values, which in part was inherited from its predecessor, The Oxford Group, a six-step deliverance group (Bill W. not only became a professing Christian while in this group, but he saw that alcoholics were not so well received, and so he started A.A. with Dr. Bob, also a Christian, and together, they doubled the Steps, making it easier to follow, and to which Bill said he was pleased to see that there were twelve, as was the number of Christ's disciples).

We cannot blame A.A. for being rooted in the occult, or that it got its start on corrupted money, because America itself is double-minded and is rooted in both the occult elite, and the humble Christian. It is just about impossible for the Christian to stay on the narrow path, as was also true for the Jews in ancient Israel. This is NORMAL, though not ideal, and yet, we strive for the ideal in working the Steps.

A.A. is not divinely inspired, as so many profess it is in meetings. In fact, I believe it has a curse on it, and this is where we see its failures that manifest in such things as low success rate, poor sponsorship, grave misunderstanding of the Steps, archaic and unclear chapters in the literature, and members who try to use the program as their main source for spirituality. But I do know that it saved my life, and this is because Christ is my real and true saviour, and he permitted my admittance into the fellowship.

And I do not brag! Attaining humility is the ultimate and final goal in A.A., and I am humble, because as a Christian I do not boast in myself, but in the Cross! This is what the Apostle Paul said in his letters to the Galatians and the Corinthians, and this is what I say to you, dear reader.

Yet with this said, A.A. cannot be a religion, because alcoholism is not prejudiced, and we are no ministry! We are sick, defective, broken people trying to stay alive! Being a deliverance group, I believe, is what made the Oxford Group fail (amongst other reasons, which is why in A.A. we have Traditions that keep us in line, such as maintaining personal anonymity).

I would truly love to share this post on other sites but I love A.A. and it's people, it really is a "We program", and I cannot be sober without it. So I will not frighten or defy my people. I also must remember that I was chosen by Christ to follow him before I got sober and before I was a dedicated member of A.A., though I had no humility. But today I work through the Steps in order to receive the peace that Christ died for me to have. So while I believe that A.A. is cursed, it has paradoxically been an avenue for me to lift mine and my family's curse. 

Looking at the parts of myself that I don't like, acknowledging when my security feels threatened by others, and confessing what I have done wrong, or what hurts me when I believe I have done nothing wrong, can only be found in Alcoholics Anonymous, nowhere else. God works in mysterious ways, and if mystery schools have given way to my new life, which has made possible for me to walk the way of Christ, then not "so moot it be", but rather, "so be it". I believe in change, because I am an example of it, and I really truly hope that there will be a reformation within A.A., where we move forward in recovery and therefore away from its occult heritage.