One Year

Stability wasn't in that time
but now it is complete.
Thank God this year is over
I pray, never to repeat

If I look too far ahead,
I surely will go mad
and demons could take over
and steal all that I have had.

The things in this time that I did wrong
had paradoxically,
led me to the clarity
I found in that insanity.

At first it took too long,
and then it got too tough
then stagnancy had a grip on me
but now here it is, in an unwelcomed rush.

Now what I haven't had is mine
in more than half my life.
Study, pray, attend, and give;
these things, they will suffice.