Change the station

It is a vicious cycle to be crippled by a broken heart. In order to surpass it, one must be motivated enough to focus energies elsewhere, but how is one to do just that, when in a state of such devastation, that they cannot think straight enough to be able to concentrate on anything other than the emotional pain that signals to us that it is better to just lay down and die, and which quite often manifests itself into an exhausting physical clutching, literally like the physiological aftermath of an assault.

I’m not the only one who battles crushing challenges, but I’m one of the few who battles them sober. And so I can say with confidence that it does get better, it does pass, and the faster we learn and then apply the tools that can be used to be optimistic, to be thankful, and to not be ashamed, the faster we can have the strength needed to get out of our pain long enough help lift others up, and that is entirely the purpose of life, even when it all seems just so unfair. Because who knows what amazing things can happen in communities, when someone feels good enough to act upon what they are meant to do, to fulfill what God had designed for their genius to be. And in turn, we have been mercifully moved from a suffocating cycle, to a nourishing one, for it is in giving that we receive. 

We do not know God’s will, and today, I won’t even speculate what His will is for me. But what I am confident about, is that my pain, or perceived pain, is not a result of punishment. I will not be fooled into believing the lies of the devil, who tells me that I am unforgiven for past errors, for this is blasphemy of the Holy Spirit, and this is the one unforgivable sin that Christ warned us about. Rather, we are in bondage to principalities from above, but we can be made free, through faith, hope, and charity. Once we recognize our exile, the gratitude for the promise of peace is the first step in being released from all suffering, and a starting point from where we may build useful and purposeful lives.

It can be so frightening to feel left behind, but we are never alone, for not only are there others who need help in one way or another, thereby making us who heed the call wholly valuable and perfect, but we are already victorious, because all of us who believe in goodness and righteousness, whether baptized by water or not, can take courage, for the world has already been given to us. That means that we are heirs of everything that we have ever wanted. Once we can recognize this, even the smallest glimmer of hope will suffice to give us enough grace to see that it really only takes a moment, to change the station. 

Endnotes:

Ephesians 6.12
Galatians 5.1
Colossians 2.15
John 16.33